Updated: Mar 2
It’s healthy to get out and do things by yourself. It keeps the mind sober, and reveals what is simmering beneath the chaos of your days. I took myself on a date tonight. Quite naturally, my thoughts drift to love when I’m out and about by my lonesome. Countless couples pass me by... some holding hands, some sharing a kiss. Some newly introduced, some old in relationship. Thank goodness I carry a pen in my purse, and thank goodness I had a receipt handy... because I had to write my thoughts down. *sigh
We spend the vast majority of our lives worrying about love until we find it. Once the threshold of relationship is crossed, there too easily becomes contempt.
I say this because I’ve been there. And now, in a “season” where I’m single, my little heart is just yearning to get it all back, but this time, not take it for granted. Not that I always did... but in self reflection, I know I could have treasured that hand hold a wee bit more, or hugged ONE more time before driving away for the night, or said one last THANK YOU for buying me a meal.
I’ve learned by time and experience that love is NOT self seeking. The most “self” part about it is the desire, but once you have it, it’s sacrifice. We’re not just searching for love for ourselves alone, but because our hearts were designed to give. We were designed to love each other. When I “find you”, THATS not the win. That’s not the trophy. It’s the beginning of what we’ve been praying for all these years: love actualized. All of the muscles and strength that I’ve built up inside is now welcomed to be exercised, in the confines of YOU. What an absolute, undeniable, unbelievable treasure. I LOVE love. I LOVE relationship. It is BEAUTY. If you have it, or whether you’re still a lighthouse shining, waiting for its partner to come home... can we just take a moment to be grateful? Can we just take a moment to thank God that He made us like this? Alllllright. I am now crying in a pizzeria, I should wrap the chat up. I believe in you, lovers of one another. You are stunning, and lovely, and made to shine bright.